Day 4 - 144

My weight was the same this morning, 144. It's amazing how I can go from 151 at night to 144 the next morning, but, (shrugging) I'm just happy I didn't gain. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be down again!

Feeling rather melancholy this morning, on the serious side, thinking about my life with God especially. How I want to spend more time with Him. And about my children, I was looking at my little 1 year old's toes as he was walking in the wet grass this morning and how adorable he is and what a precious gift - all mine! To take care of, to nurture, to lead back to God. So kind of deep thoughts today.

It is kind of a letdown that I haven't lost more weight, but I'm so determined to press on. Reading that lady's blog yesterday of 100 days of green smoothies reminds me that 4 days is such a very tiny amount to be seeing results anyway. Even though it kind of feels like a really long time, lol.

I was proud of myself yesterday for not sampling the homemade bread, chocolate oatmeal cookies, or the chicken taco soup OR tortilla chips we had for dinner. It was weird not to at least take a sip of the soup to test it out taste-wise for my family, but I didn't. I'm in this 100% with no cheating whatsoever, and as long as I stick to that, I grow stronger every day.

12:30PM
I've been so busy lately that I haven't spent much time in front of the mirror - I don't usually wear any makeup so there's no reason to. Just kind of put my hair back in a ponytail (doesn't usually need brushed), put my contacts in, and hit the ground running in the morning.

But just now I happened to glance in the mirror as I was passing through and actually did a double take. (okay, maybe not a REAL double take but it sounded cool to write that, lol) My facial skin looks really nice, smooth and soft looking with a kind of rosy glow to it. Like someone who has not been in the sun much, it's hard to describe. Kind of silky maybe? Anyway, it might be just because my tan from the summer is almost gone and it's more pale than usual, but I like how it looks! Because of green smoothies? Maybe! I've only managed to skin brush once - I need to do that more.

I decided to make Herb Pizza for the family for dinner tonight. I'll top it with last night's chicken taco soup, with the liquid strained out. Homemade pizza is one of my favorite SAD meals - I just love the yeasty bread soooo much. I of course don't plan to have ANY of it - I'll just pretend it's a yummy smelling candle. Yeah, that's what I'll do. So - wish me luck!

7:45PM
Oooooh boy, I came so close to eating that pizza! It was a "healthy" version of pizza crust with half whole wheat and gosh, I just love pizza with all the works. Veggie pizza, though - not chicken, like this one was. I just inhaled the smell and YUM - I'll have to make some raw pizza when I'm done with the smoothie feast. It's mostly the combo of bell peppers, onions, mushrooms, and pineapple that are my favorite - all raw, so definitely doable!

And, I made two big pizzas which I thought was necessary because whenever we get pizza, we always eat two Medium pizzas. But the family wasn't so gung-ho on this particular pizza so none of them had seconds. Now I have an ENTIRE pizza left that my family DOESN'T like but I do!! Aaack! I might just freeze it but that seems kind of gross for an already cooked pizza...maybe I can get DH to eat it for leftovers, but even he left the crust on his plate which he never does. I hate to see food go to waste.

I just couldn't let myself down, though, I really really want to do this! And writing on here is definitely keeping me accountable. I don't want it to be yet *another* failed attempt at doing something to be healthier and get into shape. I have a tendency to get super excited about things and do them for a few days, then just lose my momentum and fall off the wagon. This is not going to be one of those times.

But anyway, just came back from a good run. I only did 20 minutes, and I think I'll be doing that from now on. It's a pretty good, hard cardio workout where I powerwalk for two minutes, then sprint for one minute - repeat 6x. I kicked butt on the last two times of sprinting especially, I just kept thinking about that stubborn scale and how my clothes fit EXACTLY the same and how I really want that to change! And, the fact that I will only get out of running, what I put into it.

Ooooh yes, the other thing! I had some watermelon today. I was in the garage doing something and saw the last, lone watermelon sitting there. It's the last one we'll get this season and I just couldn't bear to have it wasted! Of course I could have fed it to the family but decided to go ahead and have some. It's not a green smoothie, obviously, but it's very close to liquid the way it's mostly water, and is also very cleansing.

I've been having problems with the runs and TONS of gas! As in, flatulence. =) There isn't any odor, but gosh it's kind of annoying! Hopefully this will go away.