Day 18 - 138, Craving Revelations

Today I weighed in once again at 138.6. I was hoping that would happen, and I am happy.

Yesterday I had a conversation with a friend of mine, and she is going to do green smoothies for 2 weeks. So we decided to do a challenge together. I feel like I could do green smoothies forever, it's been a very smooth ride for me so far, so I readily agreed! I'm now thinking this may end up being a 30-day feast blog. =) I am leaning more & more towards doing green smoothies until I reach my goal weight of 125. That is just 13 more pounds, which would be approx. another 30 days from now of doing green smoothies. But it's just a thought at this point, I'm not committing to that or I may set myself up for failure (in my own eyes).

Yesterday I had sort of a revelation about my cravings. I have noticed that they have disappeared about 95%. I get the occasional urge or longing to eat something, but it is almost 100% exclusively when I am getting hungry. When I drink the green smoothie, it all goes away and I am happy and satisfied. But the revelation I received was noticing that I am now at peace with that "other side" of me that desired the junk food.

Maybe desired isn't a strong enough word.

I wanted it and it consumed me. "It" being whatever struck my fancy at the moment, whether it was buttery parmesan garlic popcorn, or ice cream slathered in peanut butter, or anything else. I felt like I was constantly at war with myself, like the other half of me and there was so much unrest. But now, there is peace and quiet in my spirit. That "other self" has been stilled, like it's sleeping.

This is soooo wonderful, I can't even tell you! I feel like those old foods I used to love, are like an old friend or a good memory - I think of them fondly and with nostalgia, but they are no longer present, or available. It's weird.

I've heard that greens do wonders for cravings. I never really was able to consistently get enough greens in my system for that to really take effect. But now I know, it's true.

And I am loving life!

Another thing - I am baking and cooking so much these days! For my family of 9, who eats normal but we make healthy choices when we can. I currently have a loaf of whole wheat honey bread cooking in the oven and I am just inhaling the delicious smell. I have no desire to eat it. It is like a candle to me, reminds me of something yummy and I will get pleasure from seeing my family enjoy it.

It's all about the smell these days - I love my home being filled with smells that entice the children into the kitchen to see what is cooking. Perhaps my senses have been made more acute while being on green smoothies, but all I know is I'm actually excited and look forward to cooking. I wanted to make cinnamon rolls today for them, but I don't think I'll have time. The laundry calls, as do the dishes and computer work. I'm off to make chicken chili in the crockpot for dinner - another delicious aroma for my home!

Oooooh I forgot to mention that DH's work is having their Christmas party on November 7th! Jen, remember when we went together? Well it's here again already. Last year at this time was just before I got pregnant and I was at the thinnest I'd ever been. I weighed about 125 and bought this pretty, sleek and long black dress that I felt fabulous in. That dress is still hanging in my closet for motivation's sake. Now I have a definite goal to lose my last 13 lbs of weight by, and 25 days to do it in - perfect!