Day 23 - 137, 9 lbs lost! (and little blip)

This morning the scale read 137.4! I am very excited to see a new number, finally. And actually quite surprised, since it was only 36 hours ago that I ate definite SAD (standard american diet) foot that had salt in it, white rice, etc. I think the guidelines of no sugar/meat/dairy really helped my body to digest it well and continue on losing weight. Now I just have to be careful because in the past that would have given me the "okay" to do it again. And again. And again - quite frequently. I don't want to give in to that kind of behaviour again.

Okay, confession time. This afternoon I had a little blip in my streak of success, and ate some tortilla chips, ginger-lemon cake, and cinnamon rolls. Reason: DH is gone all day (he stayed at church and we went home) cleaning at church + going to a fundraiser which lasts til late at night. It was really hard for me to come home to a messy house from this morning's getting ready for church chaos, and nothing to look forward to. Waaaaah, poor me, huh. =) So yeah, I turned to food.

But do you want to know the real reason? Something happened that hasn't yet, in my green smoothie feast, I mean.

Basically......I let myself get too, too hungry. DH has been getting on more of an exercise/health kick lately (this is SUCH a good thing, I'm so happy he is!!!) and has told me that if I have green smoothies in the fridge ready for him, he'll take that with him to work with him for breakfast. So I made a huge smoothie last night, and then this morning with him taking one and my drinking two, I didn't get home until 3:30. I was SO starving!!! I didn't realize how hungry I was until I inhaled my last smoothie and was still hungry. The tortilla chips looked soooo good! I didn't have much willpower at that point, also feeling like I needed some "pick me up" because I was feeling sorry for myself that DH was gone. Which, I LOVE that he volunteers, etc - I just need to get my feelings on board with my heart, lol.

So anyway.......I know this may have jeopardized my weigh-in tomorrow and I'm bummed about that. BUT I am going right now to make another big giant smoothie and will never do this again, I'll be more on guard for those weaker moments and force myself to do something else. I can tell that doing this for 23 days has REALLY changed my habits - and I desperately want them to stay changed!!

So Jen, I am sorry (cuz we're on a challenge together) and am bouncing right back up to 1) deal with the consequences on the scale tomorrow and 2) never give in again. Don't do it, don't do it, don't do it.....gotta preach that to myself.

Lastly, though? I refuse to let guilt rule my life for giving in, also. I'm going to turn on some encouraging myself and start cleaning my messy house, and get everything in order for tomorrow so I can look forward to and enjoy a nice movie tonight. I promised my 10 year old that I'd braid her hair in tons of little braids for school tomorrow while we watch Smallville together. =) 'Bye!